This is a free writing exercise. I am not organizing my thoughts, just letting them flow from memory to memory.
My grandmother’s house in San Marcos, we ate Mexican
food. My grandfather made a carrot salad
with raisins and mayonnaise, and pecans.
I loved it even though I found it a little bit gross. My grandmother and her fruit. Always, every breakfast, my grandmother
believed that we should eat some fruit.
She would have prunes, sliced oranges, grapes, grapefruit… it always
felt like a chore the way she insisted on fruit with breakfast, but the English
muffins with butter were delicious.
My other grandmother made amazing meatloaf. I still remember it, even now after 15 years
as a pescatarian and her dead now two years, not having lived in that house for
17 perhaps… since my grandfather died.
My grandfather loved pecan pie and ice cream. He loved other foods that we didn’t realize
until he had passed away. We had no idea
about the pickled pigs’ feet until we found tens of bottles of them in the pantry
after his death. Their house smelled of
cigarette smoke and cloves in oranges.
Burnt countertops from cigarettes forgotten created a sporadic
semi-pattern throughout the kitchen and dining room. The foreign, fascinating sculptures and wood
carved masks and figures cluttered the cabinets and shelves by the dining room
table. Dark wood, low orange light.
Later at my aunt’s house, my grandmother could no longer
taste much, but still loved to eat. She
delighted in a grapefruit and avocado salad that was simple but tangy and fatty
and delicious.
I remember my mom’s quiche, her corn-cheese soup, her paella
that we eat on Thanksgiving instead of the traditional turkey. I remember the delicious meals that we would
make together, or she would make. My
dad’s shrimp and raw oysters. My
brother’s picky eating. Bread and cheese. One year it was burnt toast and
mozzarella. Another year cheddar, and
the bread didn’t need to be burnt. The
sodas. I find sodas revolting now, but as
a child I reveled in the sweet syrup that came out of the machines or tingled
my nose in orange tangy flavors at the lake with my aunts, uncles, and
grandparents.